Today I am really down, I dont know why but I just want to sit in a room on my own & cry. I dont have PMT infact my period just away so I cant really my hormomes on this one!
Im not exactly talking to either of my parents, I cant be assed with them bitching to me anymore, if thats the way they are going to be then Id rather they werent in my life, I can do without it. My arguments with them started as I never went to see my dad on Fathers day, well sorry if my 6 month old baby wanted home & my 7 year old wanted to spend time with her dad on fathers day, I mean it was Chris's 1st official fathers day now Violet here, I have a life, he has a cheek anyway when was the last time he visited me! He has been in my house 3 times in 4 years, once to help me move in & the last was March last year after I had my surgery! My dad bitched & said he was hurt I never visited & my mum went on at me as well as I never went down as my sister managed to call him, well bring on the brass band, my junkie sister managed to call my dad on fathers day! When was the last time he heard from her? 2 months before that! Think they forget who out the 2 of us actually gives a shit! I dont really want to be around any of them just now, my phone is unplugged & my mobile is being ingnored the hassel & stress from them I can do without!
God I feel like a fat whale as well, no matter what I do or eat still making no difference to what I weight! been walking miles upon miles watching everything I eat yet still no sign of anything coming off! Doesnt make me feel better when Chris says I look nice or anything in fact it makes me feel worse as I can see in the mirror & the ugly sight looking back at me! I just want to cut my stomach of, I could literally take a knife & stab it over & over & over again! It wouldnt be hard.
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